Watching my life transform + expand these past 5 months while growing a tiny human has been eye opening to say the least. I feel incredibly grateful, blessed, and excited for what’s to come, but a part of me is also mourning a piece of my life that I’m leaving behind.

For a LONG time I was convinced I wouldn’t have kids. I didn’t have that strong maternal instinct or desire to conceive that I saw many of the women in my close circle have. I also despised the societal pressure that is placed on women for having kids right when you reach a certain age or get married -- especially if you're not ready or if it's not something you actually want in life.

In fact, if you had asked me 5 years ago, I would’ve said 100% hell no…3 years ago, 80% no…and 2 years ago if it happens it happens.

Instead, I imagined myself climbing the corporate ladder, traveling the world on luxurious trips with my husband, and maybe a handful of dogs along the way -- all of which I DID experience for the past 12 years after college.

Until things began to shift. I left a job that was no longer serving me. I got honest with myself and dug into my passions + desires. I tuned into and connected with my heart through yoga, meditation, breath work, and mindfulness practices.

And then quarantine happened, which really connected me on a deeper level with what’s most important — to be in alignment with your heart + purpose, connection with friends, family, and community, health + wellbeing, and the simple joys in life.

I placed trust in the universe that if I was meant to be a mother, a baby would come my way.

After almost 3 years off birth control, making shifts in my lifestyle to support hormonal health + fertility, and creating space energetically, mentally + emotionally for the possibility of baby -- which expanded during quarantine, we were blessed with a baby boy.

This wasn’t a typical vacation, just the two of us at a quiet and romantic couples resort. Going to a wedding and on vacation pregnant was a different experience to say the least. It was a shedding of a piece of this past life that we've built together and a tiny glimpse into the future and beginning of this next chapter of our lives.